"Tom often quoted the koan: ???what is the sound of one hand clapping???? It is fair to say that while Tom averred his atheism, his interest and belief in satori was intrinsic to his sense of the universe, and while he might have left Edwards with the ???impression??? that ???searching for God was a waste of time??? (which I can believe if ???God??? is the detached idealized one), McGrath himself s" . . . .