. . . "So, from the age of eleven to sometime close to my mid-thirties, I believed the only thing I did have control over was whether or not I ate, BUT religious fasting is suppose to penitence, self-sacrificing, self-denial, ???act of discipline???, and basically just beating yourself up for not being perfect ???in the eyes of God???, thus why we fast during Lent, Holy Week, Advent, and other times duri" . . .