"to me it???s always the dad???i have a difficult relationship with my dad too so i understand how all yer life living with the dad can make developed dislike or maybe hatred. it???s been a year since my dad???s sudden heart attack???at that moment i didnt know what to do except praying that shorten my life to let my dad live. i don???t mind and i know he deserves much more than me. he survives and" . . . .