. . . "First, there is anxiety about discharging the duties of the consulship, which is a difficult and important business to all men, and especially to me above all other men; for if I err, I shall obtain no pardon??if I do well, I shall get but little praise, and that, too, extorted from unwilling people??if I am in doubt, I have no faithful counselors to whom I can apply??if I am in difficulty, I have" .