r,to no longer use skills on had barely time to acquire;not to observe roses and other things that promisedso much in terms of a human future, no longerto be what one was in infinitely anxious hands;to even discard one's own name as easily as a childabandons a broken toy.Strange, not to desire to continue wishing one's wishes.Strange to notice all that was related, flutteringso loosely in space.